I have a fear of small objects clubbed together. I think I
came to know about this kind of fear when I had a bad dream when I was a kid about an insect
which moved over my hand and my body. The area where it touched became covered
with some kind of shield and clusters. From that onward, whenever I remembered
that dream my body became uneasy and began to itch. However I don’t remember it
all the time. But when I come across those small insects crawling all together
(some people call them ‘Happy family’) I have a sudden irritation. In our
campus those kind of insects come out once in a year. The more you try to avoid
seeing them, the often you see them. Your eyes will see them even at a corner.
I hate it every year when their season comes.
Recently, we discuss about ‘phobias’ and I told my friends
about my story and that I don’t know the name given for that kind of phobia.
After few days, one of my friends posted it on my Facebook wall the explanation
given by a dictionary and the name given to it. I came to know that it
resembles my phobia. It is called ‘trypophobia’. From that day, I Google it now
and then to see how it is described and to get some suggestion for getting rid
of it. However, the more I search, the more I see the pictures and the more I
get irritated and get feared. It gets worse every time I see the pictures and
see the name. It gets my whole body itchy and I hate it so very much. Most of
the people who posted about their stories also seem to experience the same
thing that the more they search, the more it gets worse.
I came to a conclusion that if you ever have some kind of
fear or irritation or phobias, don’t GOOGLE it, and don’t search for an answer
to get rid of it. If you do, you’ll end up like me, getting worse. So, if you
don’t want to make it worse, just don’t Google the name anymore. In fact, if
you happen to read this from Google there’s no doubt that you have already been
Google-ing about trypophobia. I
strongly suggest you not to search anything more about it. I just thought it
can be the same case like other PHOBIAS too. So stop Google-ing about your phobias.
P.S. I don’t mean to offend the person who told me about the
name of my phobia. In fact, I’m glad if this post could help other friends
who are looking for some cure for the phobia.
